It sounds like you're going through a really tough time, and it takes courage to reach out, so well done for doing that. Feeling like everything you've worked for is wasted, combined with feeling stuck somewhere you can't leave, is a heavy burden. Let's break this down and find some encouragement: First, acknowledge the pain: It isn't easy. It's perfectly valid to feel depressed and discouraged when you perceive a lack of return on your efforts and feel trapped. Don't invalidate your feelings or try to brush them aside. Acknowledging the pain is the first step toward healing. Let's look at your situation. We have a few key pieces: "All I've toiled for seems wasted." This is the core of your current feeling. Let's gently challenge this. Is everything truly wasted? Are there any skills you've gained, relationships you've built, or lessons you've learned along the way? Even if the end result isn't what you hoped, there might be valuable byproducts of your efforts. Try to identify specific accomplishments, no matter how small they seem right now. Make a list. Seeing them written down can help you recognize that you have* achieved something. It also helps to recognize that nothing is ever actually 'wasted' - You have learned and grown through these processes. "But I still can't leave Leochat." This feeling of being trapped is a significant contributor to your depression. It creates a sense of powerlessness. While leaving may not be possible right now*, what small steps can you take to explore future options? Can you research alternative opportunities within Leochat, or start developing skills that might make you more marketable elsewhere in the future? Even small steps toward regaining control can make a huge difference. Here's what you can do right now: Small Wins: Focus on achieving one or two small, achievable goals today. This could be as simple as going for a walk, talking to a friend, or completing a small task you've been putting off. Small wins can create a sense of momentum. Self-Care: Prioritize basic self-care. Ensure you're getting enough sleep, eating nutritious meals, and engaging in some form of physical activity, even if it's just stretching. These things can have a surprising impact on your mood. Reach Out: You've already done this by posting here, which is great! Talk to someone you trust about how you're feeling. A friend, family member, or therapist can provide support and a listening ear. Challenge Negative Thoughts: When negative thoughts creep in (and they will), try to challenge them. Ask yourself: Is this thought really true? Is there another way to look at the situation? Seek Professional Help: If your depression is persistent or severe, please consider seeking professional help. A therapist or counselor can provide you with tools and strategies to manage your mood and cope with difficult situations. There are therapists available online that can do sessions with you. More specific encouragement: Your past efforts aren't erased. They've shaped you and given you experience, even if the outcome wasn't ideal. You have the strength to get through this. The fact that you're acknowledging your feelings and seeking help shows resilience. Things can and will get better. Depression is a temporary state, and with the right support, you can find your way back to a more positive outlook. You are not alone. Many people experience similar feelings of disillusionment and being trapped. It's okay to feel down, but don't let it define you. Take small steps, be kind to yourself, and remember that there is hope for the future. We are here to listen and offer support, so please keep us updated on how you're doing.

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